It has been two years since I have decided to change my life. In fact, I have had this idea even longer ago, but the 19 of November 2010 I actually did make the biggest step.
At that time, there was a time in my life, perhaps you have the same or very similar experience, when I suddenly find myself in a situation I have not been before and didn't know how to react. Imagine, you are living a happy life. Every day of your life is the same way as it always has been. You study at school or university that you always wanted and it is good, you do the job you like and you have the partner you love and all. But even though you just can not help yourself feeling, somewhere deep inside your heart and soul, the feeling that you need to change your life. These are only examples, don't take it personally. You might be living an amazing life without the need of having a boyfriend or a girlfriend, having a successful job but still having such feeling.
Now, I can imagine that not everybody knows what I am talking about. And of course it is understandable. We are all sort of unique people and we are having completely different styles of life, loves, problems, interests and experiences and so on. Let me explain, what I do not mean by this particular feeling. You can easily get confused when you thing about it. Sometimes you feel like changing your life but in reality you want to change only a small detail of it. You might like to change your habits. You might also like to begin with some new ones, or if you want to change your hair-cut. That kind of things. For example, when I feel like this I always move the furniture in my room. :) I am not saying that these things are not important, it is the other way around. I believe they are very important too! But that is another story.
So what did I mean was when you have „a sudden strong feeling that you must do something“. It's like impulse, yes, that is the right word, I was looking for. So you think about leaving job, or leaving your partner or moving to the different town, city or even country. And if the imagination of it makes you feel happy and kind of free then I suppose it's the right thing to do. And if you would do so it will be because you somehow know that is the right thing to do, right now. And you know that it's going to be beneficial to you and only for You as a person who wants to get know yourself, discover the inside of You, your needs your passions, your goals and your own personality. And it is even a little bit more then that. You know that you have to do it. There probably is a reason or reasons, I think there is always reason for acts and I believe that it is OK when they sometimes don't make any sense. Well, it doesn't have to be exactly like that, of course. But people around might not understand why. „Why do you need such a change?“ Not even you might understand it.
However, where I am trying to get is that, two years ago, I have found
myself in this life situation, I would say. I was living very satisfyingly,
I was studying the school, which I did enjoy and I had finished my studies successfully. I did have an amazing boyfriend that I loved. And even though I suddenly started to feel that there is a journey I have got to go on. So it wasn't easy at all. It was actually the most difficult decision in my life, which I had have to made, till now. But I did know, it is the right way to follow.
I have decided to leave my home town and move to London for one year. I have never dreamed about being in London before, but I did dream about being an Au-pair in England. So I did make my dream came true. Simply like that. And that is how I became a part of London and how London became a part of my life. And I would love to share this part of London life with you. So let the Journey begin!